Apologies to anyone who actually reads this. I said I’d continue writing but I did not.

In my absence I have been working at the bank and discovering that things aren’t quite as great and peachy as they seem being employed. You get yelled at, you get micromanaged, you get told you’re doing everything wrong, every minute of every day.

I’m not going to lie though. I have a pretty great boss. I’ve heard that something happened between her and her husband, meaning she either divorced him, he died, or he’s just STARTING to cause her trouble. Despite all this, I would never of noticed she had any problems. This is someone to look up to in my opinion. Maybe other people do not think so, but I do.

So as time has passed, I have grown fond of the job, even though it has its setbacks. Some of the people, I do admire if I do say so myself.

But just as things start coming together a little bit, just as things start to get comfortable, I am haunted by mistakes passed. Today I learned that working for that one company with the boss that hit on me was a huge mistake. After crashing my recently bought car due to some lack of concious thought, it was my impression that I had already paid to have everything that needed to be fixed, fixed. But after noticing a couple of oily spots on the driveway and taking the car to my mechanic, I have been notified that there is another cost. An almost $2000 cost of replacing the expensive electric shocks. So i will be spending the next month and a half paying off this part of my car as well.

So I sat at home all day, eating and making cupcakes. Because I just cannot bare the thought of this any longer…I just…want…nothing…to happen to me. No good, no bad, just neutral. Can someone please give me that? Please? 

2 days ago · 0 notes

Some days you just feel completely defeated. I also got yelled at during a road test today and failed it. Great.

1 month ago · 0 notes

WELL HELLO TUMBLR, I finally got a call back saying I can start on Monday April 9th, 2012. But guess what? They offered me a casual position instead of what I WAS TOLD I was going to get. Double you tee eff.

I am not amused.

Oh by the way, Club Monaco did not hire me. Neither of them. NOT AMUSED!

1 month ago · 0 notes

Aaaaand, I’m still waiting…

2 months ago · 0 notes

I didn’t get the club monaco job. YOU KNOW WHY?
I don’t know either it’s ok. I even asked the manager on the phone about what exactly he was looking for. He couldn’t (or more like wouldn’t) tell me!

I mean, I have tons of experience! I’ve been working in a ton of different types of customer service jobs for about 5 years! I even worked at another high-end clothing store! I even said I’d work whatever hours he’d like, even if they’re minimal!

But this dude says maybe next time. I’m glad he left me with a positive feeling though, SO I COULD CALL ANOTHER PLACE ABOUT GETTING AN INTERNSHIP! YEAAAAHHHH eat shit club monaco (though i still want to work for you)

2 months ago · 0 notes

Every day that goes by stresses me out. Maybe it’s the thought that I do not deserve what I want because I’m so critical of myself. I’m having an awkward week…

2 months ago · 0 notes

So, I’m waiting for my background check to go through at the bank. I’m going to be officially, completely unemployed in a week a half. What if I don’t hear back within the time I thought???

Well, I decided to apply at a retail store close to home, where I could get a great discount, and pick up gorgeous clothes to wear in the mean time. So one day, spontaneously, I went to Club Monaco at the nearest mall to apply. I got called back for an interview the next day, and the day after that I went for the interview. My performance could of been better, but oh well.

So now I’m waiting for TWO jobs to come though. Great. More pressure.

So what am I going to do if I don’t get hired at Club Monaco? Well, go back and apply of course!

Persistence. It’s all I have.

2 months ago · 0 notes

My next step is to pursue an interior design internship. This is going to be an even bigger challenge…

3 months ago · 1 note

It has taken me about two weeks to get all of this done, but it’s done. I have been interviewed at several branches and only came to like one of them. Some branches are filled with snobby stuck up people who look down at me for my age. Some branches are full of really nice people. Others are a mix.

With some of the interviewers, it was like pulling teeth to get them to like me, respect me, or listen to me. It seems that some of them were pushed by their superiors to speak with me. I dislike this. If someone has come to into an interview with a negative preconceived notion or intention, I’ll try to convince them otherwise, but it has proved very difficult to do so.

I’m fortunate that yesterday I met with someone who was open-minded and worked their way from the bottom, up. We got along quite well and now I am hired (pending a background check). So I am very happy to inform tumblr that I have succeeded in my first step: finding a new, more mature part-time job. Thank you!

3 months ago · 0 notes